To post or not to post...
I am wondering if making what was initially intended to be a deeply personal, inwardly investigative, open-ended motorcycle road trip across North America into an “out in the world” project is a wise idea. I see my personality wrapping itself all over it. The demand for supporters, for followers, for sponsors, for out-of-this-world content is bringing out my worst fears, the ones that have prevented me from doing so much in life.
But here I’m not criticizing those fears; instead, I am willing to look at them with humility and the scrutinizing light of wisdom. I do need an “audience” in order to make this trip feasible. Could I be so honest and vulnerable as to share Inward Ride fully, and at the same time, expect no results or rewards from it? I desperately need to live with this vulnerability, which is the antidote to the shell of personality that I need to break out of.
I can no longer compare myself to others. I have done that my whole life, and it’s an act of aggression, particularly for someone with severe depression. Conversely, I need to feed the quiet compassion of acceptance, of slow-moving. Radical measures for radical times.
The world certainly doesn’t need yet another “adventure rider”. But, perhaps, a vulnerable and sincere rider can make a difference.
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A friend's cabin in Jackson, Wyoming, where I spend some time in September 2018. ©Ciro Coelho/InwardRide.com